Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Warning: Reflections ahead!!

I had to put this picture up here because I love it. Kenndall loves to dress up and right now this is her favorite outfit to dress up in. Sweet silly girl.

This semester I am taking a qualitative studies course at Tech. It has been my favorite course to date. This course has had such a great effect on my thinking skills as a researcher, teacher, and as a person. What is so fascinating about it, is that it brings out the beauty of your personal thoughts and observations. I think so many of us are trained from a young age to fit into a box, to write a certain way, to act a certain way, to speak a certain way, and we start to lose our own sense of individuality. God has given each of us a completely unique brain, thought process, and skill set. In His idea of a church, we bring all of those great individual personality traits to the table and see where we can serve best. However, unless we spend time in personal reflection and meditation, we may not even know what our God given abilities are, or we have been tricked into thinking we are good at something we are not. I am still discovering what talents God has given me, it's not like you know overnight, it comes with trying new things, failure, success, and just toughing things out. However, God did not create any of us without a skill or talent, each of us has been blessed in some great and unique way. The double edged side to this theory, is that with this great blessing, comes a responsibility to share it. So, if your talent is teaching, you teach, if your talent is cooking, you cook, if your talent is organizing, then get to organizing. There is always a place for each unique talent within the church. By doing what you were created to do, there is a huge satisfaction that you are serving God to the best of your ability. And on the reverse of that, if you are not doing what you are created to do, there will be an emptiness in your life that cannot be filled. I love how God speaks to Paul in his conversion story, Paul blinded and on his knees and God says to him, "Why do you insist on going against the grain?" God is talking about the natural instincts He creates within us, even Paul knew that what he was doing was not what God had created him for! But, he had no idea how to find what he was supposed to be doing or how to get out of what he was doing. So many of us are like that, everyday, we go against the grain of our natural tendencies. We don't know how to stop or how to find what we are supposed to be doing.
Before this qualitative methods class, I felt that, I knew that I was confused about my God given skills. I didn't know how to express that, and I didn't know why I felt a little bit empty. This class has helped me learn to reflect in a way that opens doors and helps me "stop going against the grain".
Ok, so that is done. My reflection for the day.