Friday, January 27, 2012
I really struggle with trying to raise these girls in the right way. I never thought that God would allow me to raise girls, since I never had a sister and I struggled with my relationship with my own mother. What in the world does He have in mind? The only good thing I can think of is that these girls force me to daily pray for guidance and wisdom, because I need loads of it to deal with these beautiful, independent, strong, stubborn, tough, smart girls.
It is amazing how time flies by. I seem to be a bystander watching my life rushing by like a train at top speed. This year, if the Lord wills it, my baby will turn 1, my husband and I will celebrate 10 years of marriage, my son will be 6 and go to first grade and my tall blondes will turn 4 and 5 on their birthdays, I will finish my coursework for my PhD and begin to research and write my dissertation.
I re-read the last paragraph and I feel it is very me centered, it is kind of annoying. The longer I am on this earth, the more I realize how I have a deep yearning in my heart to help those who cannot help themselves. Service and missions become increasingly important. May God give me the eyes to see the ones around me needing His help and a voice to speak for those who are burdened and persecuted.
Anyway, random thoughts on a day that I get to stay at home and be a mommy. Blogging is getting more difficult because of my job and school. I will try to keep up a little, but don't be surprised if I kind of lay off for a couple of weeks at a time.
Posted by Chrissy Cross at 10:51 AM
Friday, January 13, 2012
In my house 5 minutes is a big deal. Some days my to-do list is so long that I really do not have even 5 minutes to sit down and look at Facebook. Some days 10 pm rolls around and I sit on the edge of my bed and realize it is literally the first time I have sat down that day. Many young mothers I know experience the same thing. In fact there are few of us that can say our lives are not busy all the time. It takes me 5 minutes to unload the dishwasher, 5 minutes to load the dishwasher, 5 minutes to fold a load of towels, 5 minutes to take out the trash, 5 minutes to get lunch ready, get a kid dressed, give the baby a bath, vacuum the living room, sweep the kitchen, pick up a spilled box of Legos, 5 minutes to clean up an overflowed toilet, and 5 minutes to get some chicken out of the freezer to thaw for dinner. If each of those items only take me 5 minutes then that was a quick and busy hour. 5 minutes is precious to me. So here is the issue.... I have a terrible problem of just getting overwhelmed with everything that MUST get done. Some days around 4 o'clock I look around at my 4 kids who are all needing something, the dinner that is half cooked, the messy living room, the unfolded laundry on the couch, the overflowing trash, and the toothpaste on the counter in the bathroom and I think, there is no way humanly possible to deal with all of this. I am completely and utterly overwhelmed. And it got me to thinking, if I can get a task accomplished in 5 minutes, what can God do with 5 minutes of my time? So I started an experiment. In the morning, I will get up 5 minutes earlier, pour a cup of coffee and sit and read my Bible. Just for 5 minutes. I would just pick a a couple of verses that I love and read them several times over, I would say a short prayer for the Holy Spirit to guide me and help me live what I read. You would not even believe the difference in my day. Not only did the feeling of being overwhelmed disappear, in fact I feel empowered to be able to handle any craziness that happens (which is 80 % of the time when you have 4 kids). In fact a feeling of peace and strength accompanies me throughout the all of my daily activities. It is crazy, God took my 5 minutes with Him and blessed me every minute of the rest of the day! Incredible. And it gets even better, I am actually able to accomplish more because I am confident that God is by my side helping me with each task. A task that may take me normally 10 minutes, only takes me 5 minutes! I know some people will be skeptical, but honestly our minds are so powerful and if you give God 5 minutes to prepare your mind for the day ahead, He will bless you in unbelievable ways. There is a flip side to this, yesterday I did not give my 5 minutes to God, and yesterday was horrible, I am not saying that God wasn't with me, but my mind was not with God. I was overwhelmed, grouchy, rushed, unable to do my best, and I felt so wrong. Those 5 minutes in the morning are vital for me. It is almost the same feeling you get when you need a drink of water, nothing satisfies that unique feeling of thirst like clean, cold, pure water. 5 minutes with God, anyone can do 5 minutes. 5 minutes to be with the person who watched His only child be tortured and killed because of my poor choices in life. 5 minutes to be with the One who wants us in His arms forever. 5 minutes with the One who has given you everything you see from the blood in your veins to the grass in your front yard. Try it and let me know what happens.
Posted by Chrissy Cross at 9:06 AM
Wednesday, January 04, 2012
Tuesday, January 03, 2012
The kiddos with the tree
Christmas in Kansas was great. Christmas in Lubbock was great. Christmas with our little family was great. However, I am glad it is over and we can begin to get back into routine. My frazzled brain is full of a never ending list to things I need to get done. I am so excited to see what 2012 brings. I feel that God has done incredible things for me, spiritually this year and I know the coming year will bring more growth and I am excited to experience that. I haven't had much time to blog this past semester, and I won't have time to blog in the coming semester, but I will try to at least post special events and when I need it, some processing of my crazy thoughts.
Posted by Chrissy Cross at 2:23 PM